I’m So Back (Kinda)

Okay, we’ve got to stop meeting like this.

The inconsistency has come to an end (hopefully). As you can see, I have not posted on here since November. Not to make excuses, but I go through waves of creativity. It may seem counterintuitive; with something, multiple somethings, occurring daily, it should be easy for me to find something to write about, right? Access to reliable sources is endless, but for some reason I can’t seem to pick up my pen… or my computer, I guess.

[Insert Carrie Bradshaw-inspired question here] How am I lacking inspiration in a world full of it?

I told myself it was because I was out of ideas, then I realized that wasn’t the case. My brain is full of ideas, and that’s the problem.

A good problem to have, don’t get me wrong, but it can feel overwhelming when your brain’s running a mile a minute.  I tell myself that there’s so much to do in so little time that I end up doing nothing at all. An endless cycle of overthinking. Where do I even begin?!

There’s no timeline for my goals or even life events in general, so I need to stop moving like there is one. It’s my mission to go with the flow while also maintaining my craft as a writer.

I have to remind myself that this is my blog and I can write as I please, no matter how informal the article may be. I’ve realized that I am, in fact, a perfectionist (I don’t know why this was surprising to me), especially when it comes to writing, because I’m so passionate about it. It makes it hard to post because I work up the idea of needing to create a full production every time.

In our current climate, I want to be thoughtful about what I share— because it’s already tough out here. I also want to move with the mindset that everything will work out, “no pain, no gain,” as the tattoo on my wrist says. 

Literally everything is political, and I’ve made it clear in everything I’ve written about thus far, and I’m going to continue to do so. It’s just about achieving that happy medium between reality and hopefulness.

I don’t know where I’m going with this.

The point is… I’m so back.

It’s been comforting knowing that there are people out there continuing to read my work, even during my hiatus. I’m going to remain disciplined, even if it’s articles like this where I don’t have much to say.

With one year of this blog in the books, I feel proud looking back at the portfolio I’ve built. I want to continue this momentum, without putting too much pressure on myself to fulfill impossible standards I made up in my own head.

Here’s to another year of progress (without urgency)!